Saturday, August 13, 2011

Life is about progress and being resillient ( August 2011 vs Oct 2008 )

We live in an accelerated world, where global events unfold at a tremendously fast rate.
In a way, life is very exciting, raw, fresh. As long as one is not burdened by past memories, one is free to pursue what is new out there. Freedom is a central part of the human life.

To me, it is very important to feel that I am free to explore, to learn, to appreciate new dimensions in life, and that I try my best for the things that I believe in. I know the journey of discovery will not be smooth nor easy, and along the way, I may complain, sulk, get angry or get temporarily depressed. However, I know the inner drive exists and it would be wrong of me not to pursue the things I believe in.

Reflecting on the many months between 2008 and 2011, I am happy with the progress in my life from those dark days:

(1) I do not have margin calls. I do not sell toxic financial products. The career swap from Citi to DBS was a great thing for me. I know some people felt that it was a career downgrade, these people would not understand what I have swapped for :-).

(2) I am a gentler, tolerant and more patient person. There is really nothing to rush for really. Would the one day that I felt wasted by inefficiency really change my life ? The answer is a clear no.

(3) I am no longer angry with my mum, and I forgive her for some of
the nasty things she has said to me twenty years ago because I
understood why she said them. I think it is important that every daughter learn from the mistakes of her mother so as to not to repeat the same mistakes of the previous generations.

(4) I have richer meaningful relationships with my good friends. They were there for me when I
was down. I also have slightly closer ties with my relatives. We are bound by historical ties and shared family past.

(5) I know I make mistakes :( . Right now, I don't wish to have so many opinions, and that I have to justify my viewpoints and that I have to be right. In life, I just need to know what my
stand is on important matters, and that is all that is necessary.

(6) I don't believe in cutting loss on human relationships. There is so much beauty and joy in close human ties. The heart is the most important source of inspiration in life.

(7) I do not think well of selfishness, greed and irresponsibility. We can't cure the problems of the world - we either improve ourselves or we improve the system so that everyone has a reasonable chance of fulfilling their Maslow hierarchy of needs.

(8) I am not afraid. What is the worst that could happen to my life from now on?