I am free ! But I have a distraction problem....

It has been a really long time since I sat still, focus, and think about penning thoughts down. The last 2 weeks have been a very sluggish one for me, since I returned from my 2.5 monthlong trip with CK. Now that I am not on a payroll, with no definite routine, and no particular short term goal, I find it tough to regulate my energy levels, sleeping patterns and moods (that I know is energy dependant)...
I find that my thought processes are very scattered these days. I find it incredibly difficult to focus on a track of thought and action, I have not realised how easily distracted I am. There seems to be so many things to explore, and I am so short of energy (not time)...
I also think that I am sort of different these days..... in the way I think, or perhaps I am just lost and adrift in the vastness of possibilities out there. Which I know is a privilege, which is also mildly depressing at the same time. I aware that I live life rather inefficiently....